Songs I go back to always – My Thoughts

I truly believe that music is the backbone of a song, so I value music more than lyrics.

I will give you a brief insight to my musical journey and then start with my song recommendation. I love recommending songs!

The Start –

Back in the day – just like most Indian teenagers I started listening to Hindi movie songs, Hindi songs were great back then. A good Hindi song is hard to find these days!

Early Teenage Days –

I got introduced to Green Day during my high school days, thanks to the UEFA Champions League 2008/09 feature song – Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Green Day instantly became my first favorite band and then I heard a lot of Eminem (I sometimes still do), Linkin Park, Switchfoot, Poets of the Fall etc.

Transitioning to Maturity –

Porcupine Tree is that one band which quickly replaced all other artists/bands. Why? Because they’re so melancholic. I got addicted to their music, I felt their music pushed the best poetry out of my soul. And just like that my moongazing-stargazing sessions started, I wasn’t afraid of going up to the terrace at night and also started admiring the beauty of night. Sadly, the band broke up in 2009… I’m wondering why I called myself mature up there.

Anyway, without further ado, here are some songs from the past I still prefer to listen.

• Half Light by Porcupine Tree

Why you should listen to this – This song is simply unearthly. The music is fantastic, and the lyrics are spot on. If you’ve lost someone, then this song is for you.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime at night

• Lazarus by Porcupine Tree

Why you should listen to this – Because it’s very simple and such a joyful song. Again, Porcupine Tree’s music is out of this world, and the lyrics are great. If you want some positive vibes, then this song is for you.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime at night during winters I guess

• Heartattack in a Layby by Porcupine

Why you should listen to this – I really don’t want any of you to be sad but this is a great breakup song. For sure you can see my love for Porcupine Tree, the first time I heard this song – I got goosebumps and I played it on repeat for several days. If you’ve had a breakup, please proceed with caution and take care.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime (a broken heart is always lost)

• Trains by Porcupine Tree

Why you should listen to this – This is a great summer song with awesome music. I’m still trying to figure out the meaning of the song’s lyric, but you can give this one a try and feel the summer vibe.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime at night during summers

• Fadeaway by Porcupine Tree

Why you should listen to this – Okay so I don’t smoke or drink, but this is for those who stay high. The music is trippy, and the lyrics are fine too. Try not to intoxicate yourself.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime when you’re not planning to be high

• Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie

Why you should listen to this – This song isn’t too special for me anymore but it’s still great and has decent music and lyrics. If you need someone very close right now, then this song is for you.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime at night

• Love of My Life by Queen

Why you should listen to this – Who doesn’t want to listen to Freddie Mercury? If you haven’t heard this man, you’re in for a treat now. Freddie wrote this song for Mary Austin – the lady love of his life. Although he was gay (I’ve no issues with anyone who’s Homosexual) and died of AIDS in 1991 but I respect him coz he left his entire mansion for Mary Austin and her family.

The song is beautiful and so is her majesty – Queen.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime

• Bewajah, produced by Coke Studio

Why you should listen to this – This is a desi song for anyone who understands Urdu/Hindi. A great song which brings back memories of your past lover. Lyrics are well crafted and music too is decent.

Best Time to Listen – Anytime

And that’s it for now! Thanks for reading and listening to all these.

Please let me know what you think about them and feel free to suggest your favorite songs. Enjoy!

Fatal Error

all that happened in front of my eyes was peculiarly digital

the anxious wait
for your blog post
the restless desire
to see your photos
the sudden rush
for a phone call
the deafening noise
when the phone falls

a notification breaking through
the turbulent silence
an emoticon bringing everything
except your vibrant fragrance
the battery staying tough
when you’re online
my heartbeat in shatters
when you go offline

i once slept to the fullest
when i was a little child
and now when you don’t text me back
i lay wide awake till I go wild
only in my dreams i see
us together in a far off land
and then wake up to fix
the internet with my own hand

my life was at the pinnacle
when your acceptance was digital
nothing felt so mythical
when your denial was digital
now love seems lost in the air
it travels fast as the bandwidth blooms
the sun rises without a message
and tea gets cold in the windy afternoon
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you are my world and my world is in the phone
you are in my heart and my heart is all alone..

Sent from my Samsung Galaxy phone.
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Memento

i know you more than the stars in the black
i feel you more than a rapid heart attack

to return to you is to return to light
abandoning is my forte, to stay numb through the night

so feed this poem with all your pain
cherish everything for years to come and forget my name

i admire your strength and your untainted flaws
you have my heart but i can never be yours

now close your eyes for the good and let your dreams stay
hold on to whatever inspires you but let me fade away

you deserve more.

An Idiot’s Poem

why should i be the only one
to compromise my love
and not post about it on social media?
why should i be the only one
to stay quiet amidst a gathering
and not ramble about what comes to mind?
why should i be the only one
to pretend that i am asleep
and not spend the night out with my rage?
why should i be the only one
to follow the rules of the past
and not misbehave when i am in my senses?
why should i be the only one
to allow someone to empower me
and not go crazy till my point is proved?
why should i be the only one
to be modest and a tad bit naive
and not even flaunt my erratic mood swings?
why should i be the only one
to stand numb among my friends
and not smoke to enhance my personality?
why should i be the only one
to be caged inside my house
and not travel to explore my insanity?
why should i be the only one
to write poetry for self satisfaction
and not publicize it for personal attention?
why should i be the only one
to make sense about anything
and not be loud in this chaotic world?
why should i be the only one
to be simply understood
and not have someone spend sleepless nights thinking about me?

why should i be the only one
with a tear in my eye as i crave to be inhuman?

i am here, in this plethora of people
where everyone has a lot to say and suffocate honesty with their aura

the sound of war is music to our ears

i am surrounded by people of similar interests, they make me smile, everyone wants to shoot in the heart of silence
but this show has barely begun
nothing calms me more than knowing
i am not the only one

-hamid

evelyn

a plastic bag slides off the black pavement 
when hesitant eyes gaze at the 6th floor balcony
and the umbrella becomes more fragile against the wind so cold
dark burnt walls appear to be calm and strong

while the symphonic screams combine with the rattle of water drops
the presence of no one around gets hauntingly loud
the night succumbs to the painful storm of clear images 
and palpitations suddenly rise to grow insane

standing right there on top, for a moment she appears like a blank ghost
disappears along with white light, and the rain continues to pour down from the lamp post

“evelyn, i take all the blame….
haunt me again before i faint…”